Making lemonade cupcakes out of lemons

Yesterday I had my liver biopsy done. Hands down the most painful procedure yet, I would rather have 10 eye injections back to back. My liver sits high in my abdomen, so the doctor actually had to go in between the ribs to get the 3 samples. Each sample would knock the wind out of me. Recovery felt like I had a truck sitting on my chest for the first hour. It later eased off. Today it’s very sore. It hurts to take deep breaths, cough, or hiccup. Certain movements or positions also cause discomfort. I should get those results back in 2-3 days…

While in recovery on bed rest my oncologist came in. We talked about treatment options and identified our 1st choice, 2nd choice, and so on.

During the conversation, she threw a curveball at us. Last Sunday I had an MRI on my pelvic area, for a pain that has been on and off for 2 months. The MRI showed there were many tumors in my pelvic bone, and that cancer has spread into the bones. I have also had these random knots appear all over my head in the past 2 months, she said those were tumors as well.

It’s been a lot for my family and I to take in.

With that being said here are the positives…

1. The bones won’t cause any harm, just some aches.

2. The treatments for the liver will also help the bones, it’s a 2 for 1 special.

3. It’s all caught really early.

4. I can still live a normal life.

With the positives outweighing the negatives I am feeling pretty good. I am back home in sunny Carolina, resting with my fur babies and flowers by my bed.

I’ll be back to work on Thursday for our classroom Christmas party!

Chapter 2

It took 5 years for me to become cancer free. However, it only took 5 months after that to learn that my cancer is possibly back. On November 29th I learned that my MRI showed a few lesions on my liver. It’s still so strange. In July I thought I closed this chapter of my life. I didn’t realize the sequel was being written… as I sit in Philadelphia anxiously waiting to see my oncologist in the morning for a biopsy, test, and discuss treatment options. I’ve decided to continue my blog.. so coming soon to your mobile device Cupcake v Cancer, chapter 2. Come read the highs, lows, and comedies in between! This blog will be featuring how I will manage my treatments, teaching, and traveling in between.

5 Year Mile Marker!

Today marks 5 years! In my five-year treatment program since being diagnosed July 1, 2013 with ocular melanoma. I’ve now reached the five-year mark, and my oncologist has declared me cancer-free!

And now I start to adjust.. I release all the anxiety, stress, anger, and depression that has been carried around for the past 5 years. However, whenever I was first diagnosed all I wanted was to have my “normal” life back. I need to make it clear that having our old life is not always possible and I need to adapt … so I am considering this new lease on life an opportunity to recreate a new, exciting life after cancer.
• • • Thank you Caitlyn 
for my shirt 💙🖤💙• • •

#TheNextChapter #OfficiallyCancerFree #OcularMelanoma

 

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Laser treatment #2 ✔️

I had a laser treatment today to stop the hemorrhaging in they eye, for the past 5 months I was receiving an avastin injection to the eye. The next stop was the laser. I am now at home resting waiting for some pain meds to kick in… So today didn’t go as I wanted the Valium they gave me didn’t really kick in, so unfortunately I felt all 5 of the shots that they gave me in between my cheek bone and eye socket. Probably the worse pain I have ever felt, but the laser wasn’t bad! Now I am home resting with the best puppy nurse around! Thanks for all the prayers! #OcularMelanoma #CancerSucks #CupcakeVCancer

I have to and so do you.. 

Since being diagnosed with cancer, the most popular saying I’ve heard is ” I don’t know how you do it.. ” I usually smile and change subjects. I get that until your in these shoes you may not fully understand but this is my mindset.. I am doing it because I have to, it can be life or death so quickly. Nobody after a diagnosis is just going to give up, we may have our moments in denial and grief; but you push to the side and realize what it is happening and you just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and dang it, you refuse to let it get to you. You prepare for the worse and pray for the best. You push yourself. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. No matter what side effects have happened or what you have lost; you fought for this life now live it. That’s how it’s done it. There’s no other way.

Conquering stage fright! 

So I conquered a fear today! I spoke in front of about 200 people…Into a microphone… On a stage.. Cried during my speech.. AND made people giggle! It was worth it because it ended with me getting a standing ovation! ☺️ #CureOM #ocularmelanoma  

A sign from Meredith and Kenan 

I have always believed in signs. And this right here is the BIGGEST sign I have ever received! So today is the anniversary of Meredith’s death…After all the rain and wind for the past couple days we finally got to go outside and play. We decided to stay out longer to enjoy the weather.. Not long after that decision one of my kids ran up to me and said “Look Ms. Heath, I found trash!” I took the crumbled up newspaper and opened it.. There it was my sign that all of our hard work with the cluster is paying off… I truly believe this is a sign from Meredith and Kenan showing us that we are on the right track and to keep up the hard work.